Tuesday, 1 March 2011
was time.
I had to do a small surgery and dermatology in the leg this morning I did.
Now we have to wait for the outcome of histology.
I find myself with a total of 10 points and I think I'm at home 3 days and return to work Friday.
I was full of terror, but what am I iperansiosa and with a very low pain threshold.
My daughter was very pretty, I acted as chauffeur and psychological support. I needed it. Ah yes ... Why this situation has made me think of loneliness, not having anyone to lean on.
I think I'm a determined person and strong enough, but they are of flesh, and I also have moments of great sadness and depression.
Ah yes ... I often feel lonely, emotionally alone. I look at the pillow next to mine and it is always empty.
But loneliness is not so much of today that makes me feel bad, but the thought that they always will, now that the situation will not change again, never again.
I have contributed in part I, with my choices, to create this situation, but maybe was intended to bring before certain crossroads.
I always tried to decide from the heart, with sincerity and honesty. Never for convenience or expediency. And this is the result.
Mah. Will be a temporary thing, maybe in a few days I'll be back the cheerful woman who gets excited for a new book, a recipe to try, to visit a museum ...
I feel I have many interests, which are not stopgap, but true interests.
Only sometimes are not enough to fill my life.
I'm just in a phase of cosmic pessimism .... I'll tell you when it will pass.
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